In the search of

The dreaded F-word that I got to hear almost on a daily basis at the school and sometimes also at home. It wasn't in English though. And maybe it meant differently for those who used it to address it, but for me it was a description of my size. I started to use it too at home occasionally, I do so even now), I do not think I mean it in that way. But I certainly use it with a negative connotation and not as a term of endearment. I was not conscious about my size but was made to feel conscious. It was not the movie stars or models which made me feel insecure but the insensitive mockery that my classmates would make of my size, my gait. I used to wonder if I was not what is considered to be a 'above average' student then how much worse it would have been.  I wasn't the best at physical activity. But maybe a little practice and encouragement would have helped. Remember, this was the time when I was also dealing with the secrets of my eyesight. Anyway, it wasn't until la...

 The following piece is written according to my understanding of issues and my lived experiences that have shaped my opinion about them. My multiple identities influence the way I see the world and my response to what I face. You are free to disagree with me entirely or maybe you'll agree with some points and disagree with some points. That's completely fine and if you want we can have a discussion spanning over days(I'm not much of an immediate responder these days for multiple reasons). So having said that, I'll begin with my definition for morality, the reason or the rational(values, principles) for distinguishing right from wrong and religion here means including the entire scriptures, mythology, philosophy, rituals and the practices being followed in its name. There is this debate in philosophy which talks about religion and morality. Some say morals are derived from religion, some say that religion and morals are separate and some say that both are interdependent ...

 My parents were particular about their kids not having to wear glasses as my mother had glasses which were of high power as per my father. I remember wearing the cylindrical lensed glasses of my mother and feeling all dizzy and seeing the floor move like a wave. Cut to when I was 9, I started having issues with seeing the blackboard clearly, By then, my elder sister was using headache glasses. There was this one Wipro eyecare health camp where in they told me that I needed glasses. I don't think I told this piece of information to my mother. Maybe I was afraid of the 'lecture' that I'd get back home. I managed by siting closer to the blackboard. But this was not possible cause believe it or not, I was among the tallest in my class at that time. And eventually I started wearing prescribed glasses(-1.5D power, I guess) when I was 10. Now, my eyesight seemed to worsen quickly and I hid this at home cause I felt responsible for it. I thought to myself, is it because I watc...