Why....? When..

Why do
I wish to go to the future in a blink of an eye?
When
I know that I go there every second and say the past bye
Why do
I want to know the presents that the future holds for me?
When
I know that i can truly live them when they surprise me
Why do
I want to close my eyes in the present?
When
I know the way this is the way thinks are meant to be
Why do
I want to relive the moments of the past?
When
I know that I can make this moment last
Why do
I make a person of distant past matter to me?
When
I know that our paths won't cross, that's the way it'll ever be
Why do
I over think and miss the chance of being happy now?
When
I know many things that can make me go wow
Why did
I not apologise to the person whom I hurt?
When
I did have a chance, rather have a guilt like dirt
Why did
I not stop arguing when I know I was wrong?
When
I know that it would not make things strong

Why do
I not be good,
plenty of times I can
Why do
I not control my temper,
plenty of times I can
Why do
I push myself,
don't give a break
Why do
I lay things off,
many things to make

Why do I ask questions?
When I know the answers
Why do you think it's strange?
When you know that I am a HUMAN!






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